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Feb. 3rd, 2004 03:49 pmI've been doing a lot of thinking recently. It's not something I like to do too often and I'm blaming Jono for this round of thinking.
1). I don't want to be scared. I don't want to run scared for my entire life. That's not a life, that's an existance.
2). I don't want to be like Sarah either. She's cool, she's nice, but she's hard. And not in a boney way either. I don't know how to not to be like her though if I take a stand.
3). how can we supposedly be working for peaceful co-existance when we hide in the school? I don't want to hide, it won't help anything and I'm sure it will hurt being purple in public (PIP ;) but I don't want to spend the rest of my life like a hermit.
I don't have answers, I just know that I can't live like this. I want to have a life, I want to be NORMAL. and that will never happen.
if I can't be normal in the non-mutant sense, then I think I should stop hiding.
1). I don't want to be scared. I don't want to run scared for my entire life. That's not a life, that's an existance.
2). I don't want to be like Sarah either. She's cool, she's nice, but she's hard. And not in a boney way either. I don't know how to not to be like her though if I take a stand.
3). how can we supposedly be working for peaceful co-existance when we hide in the school? I don't want to hide, it won't help anything and I'm sure it will hurt being purple in public (PIP ;) but I don't want to spend the rest of my life like a hermit.
I don't have answers, I just know that I can't live like this. I want to have a life, I want to be NORMAL. and that will never happen.
if I can't be normal in the non-mutant sense, then I think I should stop hiding.
