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I just got off the phone with my father. He says that he is taking the step-monster and my step-sisters on a cruise for spring break and that I could come on certain conditions.
1). I can't be purple.
2). I must dress and act "as befitting a young woman of my social class" aka the step-monster gets to pick my clothes out
3). I can't embarass him. aka: I can sit in a lounge chair, order smoothies until I puke, read and do whatever my step-sisters want to do on shore excursions and never go into the discos, talk to people I am not related to, and generally be myself.
or he will buy me a katana.
even if Dr. McCoy loans me an image inducer for a week, I still couldn't be me. I couldn't have fun. why is he so ashamed of me? I've never done anything worse than his step-daughters.
I guess I'm getting a katana. I never thought I would feel this bad about something I have wanted for so long.
1). I can't be purple.
2). I must dress and act "as befitting a young woman of my social class" aka the step-monster gets to pick my clothes out
3). I can't embarass him. aka: I can sit in a lounge chair, order smoothies until I puke, read and do whatever my step-sisters want to do on shore excursions and never go into the discos, talk to people I am not related to, and generally be myself.
or he will buy me a katana.
even if Dr. McCoy loans me an image inducer for a week, I still couldn't be me. I couldn't have fun. why is he so ashamed of me? I've never done anything worse than his step-daughters.
I guess I'm getting a katana. I never thought I would feel this bad about something I have wanted for so long.
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