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I just got off the phone with my father. He says that he is taking the step-monster and my step-sisters on a cruise for spring break and that I could come on certain conditions.

1). I can't be purple.
2). I must dress and act "as befitting a young woman of my social class" aka the step-monster gets to pick my clothes out
3). I can't embarass him. aka: I can sit in a lounge chair, order smoothies until I puke, read and do whatever my step-sisters want to do on shore excursions and never go into the discos, talk to people I am not related to, and generally be myself.

or he will buy me a katana.

even if Dr. McCoy loans me an image inducer for a week, I still couldn't be me. I couldn't have fun. why is he so ashamed of me? I've never done anything worse than his step-daughters.

I guess I'm getting a katana. I never thought I would feel this bad about something I have wanted for so long.

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Re: I am confused.

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because usually, fathers aren't so mean to their kids. There are obvious exceptions to this, but generally fathers love their kids.

Re: I am confused.

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They do? *shrugs* Well, least you know who yours was. An me foster father were a lot worse than havin' none at all. Believe me, a lot worse. Tell him to go fuck himself an do what you want too.

Re: I am confused.

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No, they don't.

Trust me, I know.

Fathers are authority figures - their responsibility is to groom the next generation and to make sure that the line continues. If the child is out of line, it is the father's sacred duty to correct the offending behavior in any way in which he sees fit.

Perhaps it is different for girl-children, I cannot be sure.

MdlR

PS - For what it is worth, my father never loved me - but he respected me, and I him. And I am fairly certain I was the better for it.

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Manuel, it might have occured to you, although it seems not - you are not normal, and did not have a normal upbringing.