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I don't like Manuel. period. Yes, he and Amanda are doing...whatever, and she is my friend, but that doesn't mean I have to like him.

I'm not going to be so petty as to say that I'm not going to Boston if he goes, but I am thinking of trying to get there under my own power, I've been to Boston before years ago. Maybe I am petty. I don't know. I just think I'll try to skewer him with a toothpick or a straw or something if we spend that much time in the car together and I am pretty sure others feel the same way.

and blood is hard to get out of upholstry. *blink*...I sound like Sarah. but it's TRUE. even glitter can't help him.

speaking of, I'm NOT bringing glitter with me. you guys will all have to suffer without. try not to be too upset.

EDIT: I've been trying to think about my actions BEFORE I do them. I'm trying. so...this is me attempting to prevent more problems. it is so much easier in fencing, there are only a limited number of actions you can do!

well....lovely.

fuck it all.

drinking straws aren't weapons. neither are toothpicks. my point was
I'd probably do something stupid, not that I would actually hurt him. I'm not arguing this anymore with anyone.

I'm stupid, I'm immature, I'm wrong and right now, I'm not sure I care. I tried and it seems that only Nathan cares that I tried. Failed, yes, but tried. he offered HELP so I wouldn't make the same mistake again.

it's not like no one else here ever makes mistakes. everyone here is obviously so perfect.

I'm going to Boston tomorrow. I'm not bringing glitter. I'm not going to speak, touch or otherwise acknowledge Manuel because I don't want to cause a problem. But I am glad he's going. And when I get back, I have detention. Just so you know.

fuckity fuckity fuck.