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I've been doing a lot of thinking recently. It's not something I like to do too often and I'm blaming Jono for this round of thinking.

1). I don't want to be scared. I don't want to run scared for my entire life. That's not a life, that's an existance.

2). I don't want to be like Sarah either. She's cool, she's nice, but she's hard. And not in a boney way either. I don't know how to not to be like her though if I take a stand.

3). how can we supposedly be working for peaceful co-existance when we hide in the school? I don't want to hide, it won't help anything and I'm sure it will hurt being purple in public (PIP ;) but I don't want to spend the rest of my life like a hermit.

I don't have answers, I just know that I can't live like this. I want to have a life, I want to be NORMAL. and that will never happen.

if I can't be normal in the non-mutant sense, then I think I should stop hiding.

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We hide?

I know that those apperance changing devices are available for you to use, but other than that, I don't know that hiding is something any of us do.

Maybe it is different because I don't have a physical change, but we have _never_ been cloistered here, or told to not 'be' mutants outside the school, just not to start trouble.

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I was expelled from school for being a mutant. I was locked in my house for nearly 3 months before I came to Xaviers. Hell, I was expecting everyone to hate me here. You didn't.

Even before I was expelled or locked away, I was changing colors and had to be careful. I could claim my hair was a dyed, I could wear makeup and longsleeves and try to pass. And sometimes I didn't.

I have to get permission to use an image inducer any time I want to go out. While that means I get to use one, it also means if I can't get one when I need it, I can't go, and that's not right.

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You have to get permission?

That is odd. Maybe they're just worried because its expensive?

I am sure that other people have personal ones.

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I was told I needed permission from Alison...unless I misunderstood and no one has bothered to correct this in a MONTH.

also...do any other students besides Miles have one?

Re: Image thingamies

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yay! thanks! see you soon!

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