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I've been doing a lot of thinking recently. It's not something I like to do too often and I'm blaming Jono for this round of thinking.

1). I don't want to be scared. I don't want to run scared for my entire life. That's not a life, that's an existance.

2). I don't want to be like Sarah either. She's cool, she's nice, but she's hard. And not in a boney way either. I don't know how to not to be like her though if I take a stand.

3). how can we supposedly be working for peaceful co-existance when we hide in the school? I don't want to hide, it won't help anything and I'm sure it will hurt being purple in public (PIP ;) but I don't want to spend the rest of my life like a hermit.

I don't have answers, I just know that I can't live like this. I want to have a life, I want to be NORMAL. and that will never happen.

if I can't be normal in the non-mutant sense, then I think I should stop hiding.

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Hate to break it to you..

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~translated from the Castillian~

But until they perfect the full-body dyejob, you'll never be normal. You don't want to hide anymore? That's fine, but there's some folks around who can describe in painful levels of detail what happens when you decide to stop hiding.

If you really want to face the fear, to conquer it, then come and see me sometime. We'll talk about it.

~translated from the Castillian~

MdlR

Re: Hate to break it to you..

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I know. and I don't want to get beat up or worse.

I was lucky. I know that now. but that doesn't mean my luck will hold. and it doesn't mean I have to rely on it forever.

Maybe I'll stop by soon.

Re: Hate to break it to you..

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I will be expecting you.

MdlR