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I've been doing a lot of thinking recently. It's not something I like to do too often and I'm blaming Jono for this round of thinking.

1). I don't want to be scared. I don't want to run scared for my entire life. That's not a life, that's an existance.

2). I don't want to be like Sarah either. She's cool, she's nice, but she's hard. And not in a boney way either. I don't know how to not to be like her though if I take a stand.

3). how can we supposedly be working for peaceful co-existance when we hide in the school? I don't want to hide, it won't help anything and I'm sure it will hurt being purple in public (PIP ;) but I don't want to spend the rest of my life like a hermit.

I don't have answers, I just know that I can't live like this. I want to have a life, I want to be NORMAL. and that will never happen.

if I can't be normal in the non-mutant sense, then I think I should stop hiding.

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[x-rogue.livejournal.com]

You can do both at once. Some of us do it all the time.

If you want to defend yourself, there's lots of people to teach you that - verbal, physical, emotional, mental, you name it. We got your defense around here somewhere.

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[x-blink.livejournal.com]

well, I'm in beginner's self defense and I spar with Shiro several times a week.

I think I'm going to see about switching to Katana as that is a much more useful blade...

You fence, do you not?

[x-empath.livejournal.com]

Well, as much as any American can truly fence.

As soon as my rebellious body decides to accomplish my will, then I will cross a blade with you.

Perhaps we'll even wager on the outcomes, to keep things ... sporting?

MdlR